1 November, 2009
I turn 36 today. I can no longer pretend that I’m going to be eternally young, I feel middle age sneaking into my room and sitting in the corner.
Or, as someone much younger (23) commented to me in IM, “You’re going to die soon!”
If you’re feeling overly generous, my Amazon wish list linked on the right side. Or, here’s a link for you people reading via RSS. (Ha! No excuse now!)
A few other thoughts after the jump.
I was already feeling old before my time when Morpheus passed away a few months ago. The kitten I got in college grew old and is no longer with me. Again, not easy to pretend I’m going to be young forever.
Sometimes I worry that my career is passing me by. Sometimes I feel like I’m perceived as being like Chris Crawford (tilting at windmills on a strange crusade, except without having created a beloved landmark game or written a landmark design book). The industry is a dreadfully depressing place sometimes, and the projects in the last few years I have been excited about have ended unhappily with very little to show for them. Earlier this year, a fellow MMO designer told me that I need to find a successful project to work on; perhaps he’s right.
I’m not giving up quite yet, though. I’ve got a few ideas to try before I start looking for refuge in a steady paycheck. Hopefully I won’t be completely unemployable by that time. ;)