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28 December, 2006

Five things you don’t know about me…
Filed under: — Psychochild @ 2:46 PM

…and maybe don’t even want to. I usually don’t post personal stuff on here, but I’ve been called out by Matt and Amber, and have to write five things on my blog or my wishes won’t come true. I think….

Anyway, time to dig through the blackmail file and see what I can give out before other people do….

I could cheat here and post up five obscure things about my childhood. But, I think I’ll put a bit of info out here for anyone that really cares. Yes, both of you. And my stalker(s).

1. I grew up in a blue collar family. Or, in common terms, I grew up poor. My father worked on an assembly line putting together vending machines and my mom was a stay-at-home mom for the most part. She was a bookkeeper for the state before she had kids, and she went back to college to get a 2-year accounting degree while I was in junior high school; this was one of the causes for the divorce between my parents. I’m actually the first person in either family to get a 4-year college degree. And, to quote the band Everclear, I’ve known the joy of a welfare Christmas. You know those toy drives they have around Christmas? Yeah, that was the source of my Christmas gifts a few holiday seasons. On the bright side, I think growing up poor gave me an appreciation for how to do more with less, especially when it comes to finances.

2. I started almost everything late in life. I didn’t cry when I was born, even when the doctor swatted my bottom; I was told that I was too busy looking around and taking in the sights. I started walking and talking later than expected. I don’t remember much in my life before I started going to school. The first thing I really remember in my life is that the school bus didn’t stop to pick me up (the driver wasn’t told I was a new stop), so someone came and picked me up from the school; I remember riding in a Jeep, staring at the shift knob wondering what it was for. Being born in November, I didn’t start school until the next year compared to all my friends that were born September or earlier. Even when I did start school, they thought I was “developmentally challenged” and put me into the slower Kindergarten class. This has continued until recent times, too; I didn’t learn to drive until I was in college, either. I didn’t even consider making games professionally until I was just about to graduate college. So, don’t be surprised when I show up late. ;)

3. I’m really, really introverted. Yeah, I know, I’ve written about introversion a lot before, but I don’t think people understand how much it affects me because I’ve learned to extrovert well. I’m still uncomfortable in large social situations, I don’t pick up on a lot of the cues other people do, and I don’t always follow-up with people as I should. Sometimes I feel almost sociopathic because I don’t miss people, or get really upset over deaths, as much as other people seem to. Almost, because I still feel emotions and still think it’s a good idea to follow the law. And, as a typical introvert, I tend to overanalyze things and worry a bit about if someone is treating me differently for some reason. But, keep this in mind if I don’t write back immediately or if I seem a bit distant at a conference. Given what she wrote in her first item, I think Amber understands this.

4. I hate hero worship. This is the reason I enjoy sports games, but I hate professional sports. Celebrity gossip simply irritates me; I don’t care who is having a baby, who is adopting, or any of that garbage out of Hollywood. Even though I enjoy a lot of music, I rarely find out anything about the band doing the music. I never had heroes growing up like most kids did. This isn’t to say that I don’t admire people, particularly some historic figures, but I don’t get so blinded by worship that I think they can do no wrong or that I need to know every possible detail of their lives. And, yes, that means my stalker(s) aren’t really impressing me. ;)

5. My biggest fear is losing my mental faculties. The scariest part of growing old, for me, is the possibility of growing senile. The movie A Beautiful Mind could be classified a horror movie for me. It’s horrifying to have to choose between brilliant craziness and a mundane life. The absolute worst situation would be where I was still conscious, but unable to move my body; I’d almost certainly lapse into mental breakdown of constant daydreaming. People that know me know that I tend to be a bit spacey anyway, but I don’t really live a life of constant fear. :)

Time to call out some other people, I guess. I’m most curious about Richard, Danc, Chas, Matthew, and Grimwell. Bare your souls! Show the world you’re really just a big ball of crazy barely kept together by games.







11 Comments »

  1. Now this is pretty strange of me to start talking about this… I hope you don’t mind at all if I’m posting this comment, but I fitted into all of the categories except for #1.

    For #2, I was struggling in my early years at school. For #3, I find it difficult to talk with people I don’t know. I’m not even sure if I should be posting this comment or not! For #4, I can care less about how two celebrities were breaking up. And for #5, sometimes I fear of being diagnosed with schizophrenia.

    If this is strange, then I’ll just stop posting.

    Comment by Neol — 28 December, 2006 @ 4:19 PM

  2. I hear you on the introversion and the not really missing people.

    –matt

    Comment by Matt Mihaly — 28 December, 2006 @ 4:33 PM

  3. I hope you don’t mind at all if I’m posting this comment

    Actually, upon reflection I can see that a lot of these things are related. It’s not surprising I don’t like Hollywood gossip as an introvert. Smart people usually do get a “late start” (as I’ve been told numerous times in my life), and it’s probably no surprise that I fear losing what I consider my greatest asset: my mind. So, not terribly shocking that someone else might have similar feelings.

    But, now we know we’re not alone. :)

    Have fun,

    Comment by Psychochild — 28 December, 2006 @ 6:38 PM

  4. 5 Things You Don’t Know About Me…

    It's a meme thing.

    1.  I am shy in real life.  Almost "Yo!  Adrian!" shy.  I rarely have a snappy comeback, and social situations are hard for me.  I wish I was the person my blog thinks I am.
    2.  I have wr…

    Trackback by Amber Night — 29 December, 2006 @ 10:21 AM

  5. [b]Five things you didn’t know about me[/b]

    [...] This is not my blog. I set it up, do the admin, and all that, but this is a blog for WorldForge. I also have not been tagged by anyone else in the blogosphere, where the “5 things you didn’t know about me” meme is currently going round, but for some reason I feel compelled to write this post, in the aftermath of the birthday that marks my existance on this planet for one third of a century. [...]

    Pingback by WorldForge Developers’ Journal — 29 December, 2006 @ 7:40 PM

  6. A bonus item for those of you that read the comments:

    6. I collect trash. No, really, stuff that should be thrown away. At my first job I chewed a lot of gum, and I peeled the foil off of the outer gum wrapper and kept a stack of it. At 3DO, when the team was relocated to a loading dock, I kept the foam rings that you find under the cap of 5 gallon bottles of water. Why? I’m not really sure, but at one point I did realize I was counting time by counting the foam rings. I haven’t done this much recently, though.

    BTW, I still have those foam rings for whatever reason. Our team went through 13 bottles of water while we were in that area.

    Yeah, I’m a bit strange.

    Comment by Psychochild — 30 December, 2006 @ 12:06 AM

  7. I hear you on the introvert thing.
    It’s also related, for me, to my dyslexia.

    Comment by Andrew Crystall — 31 December, 2006 @ 7:02 AM

  8. 5 Things You Didn’t Know About Me

    [...] Psychochild tagged me. List 5 relatively obsucre things about yourself, then tag a few other bloggers to do the same. I have to admit, I procrastinated by backtracking what others have listed, but I can’t stall any longer… so here goes: [...]

    Pingback by Tattered Page — 2 January, 2007 @ 6:33 AM

  9. The Obligatory "Five Things" Post…

    Dragon tagged me with a meme that has been circulating the game-o-sphere for a few days: what are five things you don’t know about me. I would once have been able to say “1 – I don’t do memes”, but since this is my second, that’s really not going…

    Trackback by Zombie Pirate Ninja Monkey — 3 January, 2007 @ 4:57 AM

  10. I’m sure I wrote this post! This is me! I found this blog by searching for ‘I don’t miss people’ in Google, trying to work out if I’m a sociopath! I’m goad I’m not alone!

    P.S. Try to throw away the foam rings. Hording is veering toward obsessive-compulsive behaviour.

    Comment by Frex — 1 August, 2008 @ 5:42 AM

  11. I haven’t collected any new trash like that in a while. ;) I’ve kept the rings, though. Maybe they’ll get thrown out in my upcoming move.

    And, no, you’re (probably) not a sociopath; you’re just really introverted. My post on Conferences and the Introvert can give you a lot more info about being an introvert from my point of view.

    Have fun,

    Comment by Psychochild — 1 August, 2008 @ 2:09 PM

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